Darkness Visible

To a man who said we should meet, even if it were only for a single time

Even if I now saw you
only once,
I would long for you
through worlds,
worlds.

— Translated by Jane Hirshfield and Mariko Aratani, from The Ink Dark Moon: Love Poems by Onono Komachi and Izumi Shikibu, Women of the Ancient Court of Japan

Don’t worry, spiders, 
I keep house 
    casually. 

— Kobayashi Issa (trans. Robert Hass)

MMDCCXIII 1/2

The cruelty of ages past affects us now
Whoever it was who lived here lived a mean life
Each door has locks designed for keys unknown

Our living room was once somebody’s home
Our bedroom, someone’s only room
Our kitchen had a hasp upon its door.

Door to a kitchen?

And our lives are hasped and boundaried
Because of ancient locks and madnesses
Of slumlord greed and desperate privacies

Which one is madness? Depends on who you are.
We find we cannot stay, the both of us, in the same room
Dance, like electrons, out of each other’s way.

The cruelties of ages past affect us now

— Lorenzo Thomas (1979)

Litany for the Animals Who Run from Me

Anything can be a bird if you’re not careful.
I should say something nice about the weather.
I should be in awe of the living, but the world dulls
when I step into it. The squirrels scatter, the branches
lift. Sure, I’ve hurt the ones I’ve loved
by not paying attention. Not alone — never alone
is a lesson I need to understand. It was you who said that.
It’s you still. You who says, Look! You who points
to the sky. You who tilts my chin toward the heron,
who cups the minnow in your hands,
who spots the deer miles ahead, who dulls
the world with your absence. You who says, Look!
& when I look, you are gone, replaced
by the whitetail’s hind legs, fading into the bush.

Hieu Minh Nguyen (2018)

My Career

So little to say
So urgent
to say it

— Leonard Cohen

Song for Autumn

Don’t you imagine the leaves dream now
 how comfortable it will be to touch
the earth instead of the
 nothingness of air and the endless
freshets of wind? And don’t you think
 the trees, especially those with
mossy hollows, are beginning to look for

the birds that will come — six, a dozen — to sleep
 inside their bodies? And don’t you hear
the goldenrod whispering goodbye,
 the everlasting being crowned with the first
tuffets of snow? The pond
 stiffens and the white field over which
the fox runs so quickly brings out
 its long blue shadows. The wind wags
its many tails. And in the evening
 the piled firewood shifts a little,
longing to be on its way.

Mary Oliver

Kurt Vonnegut tells his wife he’s going out to buy an envelope

“Oh, she says, well, you’re not a poor man. You know, why don’t you go online and buy a hundred envelopes and put them in the closet? And so I pretend not to hear her. And go out to get an envelope because I’m going to have a hell of a good time in the process of buying one envelope.

I meet a lot of people. And see some great looking babies. And a fire engine goes by. And I give them the thumbs up. And I’ll ask a woman what kind of dog that is. And, and I don’t know. The moral of the story is – we’re here on Earth to fart around.

And, of course, the computers will do us out of that. And what the computer people don’t realize, or they don’t care, is we’re dancing animals. You know, we love to move around. And it’s like we’re not supposed to dance at all anymore.”

— from an interview by David Branachio

Rain

Woke up this morning with
a terrific urge to lie in bed all day
and read. Fought against it for a minute.

Then looked out the window at the rain.
And gave over. Put myself entirely
in the keep of this rainy morning.

Would I live my life over again?
Make the same unforgivable mistakes?
Yes, given half a chance. Yes.

— Raymond Carver